"In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away."
Well. Made $400 today. I'd say it was pretty fun. 13 hour shifts are really exhausting though.
I sometimes wonder why I do the things I do...why I make the decisions I make. There never seems to be any logic behind it.
I'm really not staying in Maine. Chances are I'll never see him again. And I really think he was my One. Why is the chance of that not enough for me to go back? I want more than anything to build a life with him, what a beautiful dream. There I go again, running away when the walls come up...but I know he won't come with me. I will tell him how I feel though, that way there are really no regrets. But with time, almost all aches heal...
One of our cooks remind me horribly of someone I used to know...someone who really broke me apart, mentally and emotionally. Every time I look at him, my heart twinges with a familiar pain. I try to stay away from him, just because the memories that come back are old and unwanted...the guy is real nice, it's not his fault, it's just me.
your young love, i was where you are with your guy a long time a go. i was 19, and engaged and we were ready to start a family and i thought i was ready. and you know time doesnt just heal things, it allows us to see things in a new light as things within us change.
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