"So...what happened?"

Today was the first morning I've woken up with a really bad hangover. Probably due to the fact that I had to be to work at six AM...that was difficult. The nausea was so bad. But what a super night!!!
But it's okay, I got out early and went out to eat with my lovely chef friend, and we had martinis and screwdrivers at the 22, it cured all hangoverness.

I don't have to work til four tomorrow...I have 24 hours off, insane! School vacation month needs to end...I'm so done with the pressure and stress and unbelievable craziness. 'Delight and entertain." that's our motto. Bah.

I think it's cake baking time.

Working in the restaurant business on Valentines Day is my favorite way to spend the day! So many cute couples coming in to share a special moment with each other, not afraid to show the world that they are in love.
I've always been single on Valentines Day (I did have a Valentine once though, it was sweet.) and it honestly doesn't bother me. I'd be more upset if I was in a relationship, because then I would expect cute things from my boyfriend, and if he was a dope, then I'd be bummin'. As of now, I don't expect anything, and so every message I get saying "Happy Valentines, I love you!' makes me happy!

I wish Valentines would be more broadcasted as a Love day, not simple a couples day. There are all kinds of love out there, and if society demands we celebrate it specifically on one day of the year, well then get out there and love! But don't stop.

Lunch, then off to the restaurant :)

Keith Urban's sad songs always get me...

There are times where I wish I could rewind time. I wish I had made different decisions, I wish I hadn't hurt so many people I care about, I wish I hadn't run away from my feelings. I wish I didn't get so afraid that I lashed back out. I wish I was stronger.
Maybe someday I'll be just drunk enough to apologize in person...but again, that's something I would wish I hadn't done. I wish I could say these things as a sober person. I don't want anything back, overall I'm happy with everything. I just wish you knew how sorry I am.

You'll never know. You tried so hard...you were so perfect in every way, and I ignored it. I hurt you, and yet you still thought of me above your own pain. I hated seeing your eyes light up when you saw me. It made my heart break when you told me how beautiful I still looked. I don't deserve to know you P.

I'm a horrible person, and I'm just drunk enough to know that.
Tomorrow, I'll be fine, none of this will matter.
But tonight, I wanna cry.

What can I do, when every part of every thought leads me straight to you?

Ahhh, nothing like a relaxed morning for once. My four days in a row of working 12 hour days is finally over, just a normal shift today and tomorrow, then home to see my family :)

I cut my hair shorter (its around my shoulders now) and dyed a strip pink for breast cancer awareness, and my boss told me he thinks "my hair sucks and I have to get rid of it."
Sorry bud, I already okayed it with two of YOUR bosses, so suck it. I will hide it for the most part, but I ain't paying to get it redone when I like it.
Jerk.

So I just want to say that I was really impressed with Madonna's halftime performance. Like...hot DAMN. If any of us look THAT good in our 50s, than you can diss all you want. She is still such a star and immortal in pop culture.

Well, time for a relaxing lunch, shower, and back to work at four!

This is the air I breathe.

"This is in fact, the Big Question. Does God exist; Is he there? And if he is, does he care about me? And MY smallness and MY suffering and MY struggles...? From the very beginning, God has been reaching out to you, wanting you to see that there is one bigger and more amazing then anything you could ever imagine. He is not a distant God, as if he was some deistic entity that certainly gets the world spinning, but steps back and could care less what the outcome is. That's not our God at all. This is the big G God, the one that makes something out of nothing, and looks down and says, 'Mine. My son. My daughter. My world. And it is good."
Chris Padgett, Steubenville East 2007, the weekend my life changed entirely. All of us that were there have gone so far in life, and we're all so different, and yet we all still feel the connection that we had. We may not all be friends any longer, but the bond we all shared will last a lifetime, regardless of the paths our lives take.

It's just one of those days...

Where EVERYTHING is going RIGHT. It's ridiculous!

In one day, I got rid of months worth of worrying. For once, being in Keene is relaxing as opposed to stressful. My car is registered, inspected, and I know that I'm still loved, all in one day! It's Divine Intervention, for sure. I'm so happy :)

And the fact that I'm sitting in Prime Roast drinking the world's best coffee just adds to my happy life.

Just maybe coming back here will be okay, after all!

My animal partner and I dyed our hair last night...hooray for blond and pink! My boss is going to murder me. :)
Thanks babygiiirl :)
And thanks for a super breakfast E. T., I miss our ridiculousness.
And Kitty, just stay fabulous, cause I like you. And your whale. Lol, can't wait to see how things with Red Bull work out later ;)