There are times where I wish I could rewind time. I wish I had made different decisions, I wish I hadn't hurt so many people I care about, I wish I hadn't run away from my feelings. I wish I didn't get so afraid that I lashed back out. I wish I was stronger.
Maybe someday I'll be just drunk enough to apologize in person...but again, that's something I would wish I hadn't done. I wish I could say these things as a sober person. I don't want anything back, overall I'm happy with everything. I just wish you knew how sorry I am.
You'll never know. You tried so hard...you were so perfect in every way, and I ignored it. I hurt you, and yet you still thought of me above your own pain. I hated seeing your eyes light up when you saw me. It made my heart break when you told me how beautiful I still looked. I don't deserve to know you P.
I'm a horrible person, and I'm just drunk enough to know that.
Tomorrow, I'll be fine, none of this will matter.
But tonight, I wanna cry.
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